February 2012
18 posts
I don’t like sitting in my room alone with no one to talk to. I’m so restless….
Getting over you won’t always be easy but I know it’s for the very best. I’m so glad I see this now instead of later
I don’t get really upset very often but when I do it sucks and I feel really horrible. This wasn’t suppose to happen. I was never suppose to like you. You were never suppose to be a jerk. You were never suppose to hurt me. This is all so dumb because it doesnt seem like there was a lot there but to me there was. There was months of emotions building up to just be knocked down. It hurts...
I can not even handle tonight right now. Everyone needs to just shut up and leave me alone.
Deleting your messages sucked. A lot.
Talks I have with dad
Watching this moving about a black girl bring home a white boy
Me “if I brought home a black boy would you be mad?”
Dad “no. Unless it was Logan. You better never bring him here. He has no respect for you what so ever and I don’t want you hanging out with him”
The way my parents feel about him so so strong. As much as it hurts to hear it and have to believe it,...
I’m so upset. I hate It when people tell me they don’t like you because it’s another reason I need to let you go but it’s so hard because i still want to be friends but with my parents hating you I’ll never be able to see you and cutting myself off from you won’t be easy. I just dont know how we got from the day I came home from camp and you gave me the biggest...
Guess what mom. Not everyones lives are going to be like yours. High school for me will not be the same as it was for you. Not everyone has bad college room mates. Not everyone has a crappy first job. Not everyone has bad boy friends. Janae and I are not you. I hope you learn that one day.
I thought we had something. I honestly thought you would leave her for me but i was so very wrong. I don’t even know what I was thinking. I knew you had a girlfriend the whole time. I should have said something but I couldn’t because I liked you and wanted to talk to you. But now we are left here. You went with her and your happy, which is what counts I guess, and I’m left here...
I think it might be time to let go of you...
For a month or so I’ve been having people tell me your not good for me. I didn’t want to believe it so I choose not to listen and I took your side when people called you out and I let you be a jerk to everyone and me. All your life your told to not let guys treat you bad and you think you know what getting treated bad is like until your looking at it coming from someone you love. I was...
I hate it when everyone says your bad for me and that they don’t like you and they don’t want me hanging out with you because I know it’s all true…but I’m not ready to let go : /
Just say sorry so I can go back to not being mad at you. And stop being a douche to everyone too. It’s getting old.
Being with someone else but only being able to think of you…..
The day I came to swim with Melanie and you were there and swam with us on break and then stayed after you were off with us and swam and talked and when we played with your cute cousins and you bit my knee and played with your hair and you were tickling me under the water and you were acting like a little kid and we just had a really great time together= the best memory of my summer
I don’t go to your school and I’m not technically one of you but I still feel like an arrow. And I feel so bad you boys didn’t win tonight. I think you all play so well and have such great potential. I’m proud of all of you still and I would proudly call myself a Tecumseh arrow. Heads up boys.
Thank you
For accepting me. For wanting to be my friend. For messaging me every day after school this fall. For inviting me places. For texting me. For coming with me places. For always being there to listen to my drama of the week or month. For letting me be apart of your life.
There are some pretty extraordinary people at tecumseh : )
Sorting through feeling you have for guys is never...
There’s so much emotion. Happiness, sadness, anger…all those emotions wrapped into one person at the same time can put an emotional toll on someone.
I want you because I love you and I love how I feel around you and the way we flirt and how real I can be with you but you don’t feel the same way about me and your not good for me.
I despise you for no good reason. I want to be...
Why do I feel so much for you when you probably don’t feel a lot for me? Because if you did, you would make an effort to see me like I make an effort to see you. I know you and if you wanted me, you would do anything in your power to have me.
January 2012
19 posts
Tonight was nice.
Just you and me being friends again. It’s nice to know you still think of me highly and that you respect me and to know you still love me as much as I love you. You may be a jerk 70% of the time….but I still love you. Why? Because we are friends. And sometimes you love someone even though they don’t deserve it because that’s what needs to be done. I’m glad we seem to...
Today I have had like an odd sense of peace over me. A lot has been on my mind. Concentrating has been impossible. But today, I could do my homework and not get distracted. My mind was semi clear. I just felt really really good.
Thanks god :)
I absolutely despise the feelings I have for you. You are terrible for me. I don’t even want to know where I would be right now if we were still dating. I just can’t stop you from running through my mind all the time. I can’t keep you out of my dreams. I just want to forget you. I am sick of thinking about you. I want you out of my life forever. I pray that these thoughts will...
Oh mom.....
My mom and I both have the same learning problems. She can’t keep things straight and can’t remember things. I have a hard time reading and with numbers and remembering things. But she sees these things as bad things. That these things make us “useless” and make us “dumb”. But I’ve learned that its okay I can’t do math well. It’s okay that I...
We should be talking about your snow day tomorrow right now…. :/ I miss you so much
When you left, thing started falling apart
Remember that one time we tried to make ice tea but couldnt figure out how and the tea went all over the counter and we laughed for like 10 minutes about it? yeah, me too :D
I’ll do anything to have you back
I never thought it would be possible to miss you so much. We didnt even know each other that long but I got really use to talking to you everyday and joking around and being supper sarcastic and just being friends. I trusted you and now your just gone and I’m suppose to act like you never existed?! I can’t do that! I really liked being friends and now just like that your gone. I feel...
Men are SO stupid. #angry!
Sometimes you have to go through crappy stuff to get where you are suppose to be in life. All I’ve got to say is it better be a whole lot better at the end of this.
I keep forgetting you have a girlfriend……
There has been a lot going through my mind latley
Today the thoughts have really been hitting hard. I have been looking at different wedding planers in the area and getting emails so I can message them and ask about job shadowing. Wedding planning is seriously something I want to look into. I want to start figuring it out now instead of waiting till Im older. Waiting just seems silly to me when I want to learn more now. But I need to talk to my...
I think knowing I can’t have you right now just makes me want you.
Soooo confusseddddd. This is crazy…
I feel like there might need to be some rules made……
Last night I felt like a true arrow. I felt so accepted and wanted and I felt like I was one of them. I’ve never felt so right in one place before but last night, everything was perfect there.
You wanted to see me…….. :)
I cant help but think If I were with you we would have kisses tonight. But I know we are not good for each other. I just have to tell myself over and over and over again….
December 2011
10 posts
It's new years!
This year has been…..amazing. This might be one of the best years ever. I met SO many people this year and my life literally has been changed. I met two people who I can proudly call my best friends. I grew closer than ever to my best friend. I dated this year :) I got my license! I went to homecoming which was my absolute dream come true. I’ve been heart broken this year and happy...
I want to be a cheerleader more than anything else in the world. And I’m going to do anything to make it happen.
It’s funny how some people turn into strangers……
That awkward moment when you find out the guy who you liked and who was your best friend this summer and who you spend almost every weekend with and who you had so many good memories with ends up being the biggest jerk ever………
Twitter has made me realize that you are not as amazing as I thought you were. I can honestly say now that I’m so glad we didn’t work out.
The truth is: I do want to kiss you. But I’m scared of the feelings I will get.
And just like that everything is okay again :)
I hate it when I see you and you ignore me because you are around your friends but then when it’s 11:25 and I need to be home in 5 minutes but instead I’m standing outside with you in the 34 degree weather looking at the stars with out arms tightly wrapped around each other and our faces being inches apart, for those 10 minutes, everything is so perfect.
I just don’t get you or...
6 months ago I would have never guessed that you would be one of my best friends today. God knew what he was doing this summer when he aloud me to have a job :)
I thought we could be something more but watching it not happen hurts more than I thought. I guess loving each other won’t change but I defiantly miss the past few weekends. But it’s time to buck up and let this road take me somewhere new. I’ll meet someone else way better for me but that doesn’t make this hurt any less.
Your my best friend who laughs with me at dumb...
I hate going to bed disappointed in myself every night. I hate not being able to finish my geometry homework and putting a test off till the next day just because I don’t think I’m ready. I hate not being able to concentrate on my homework because my mind is thinking of 10,000 other things. I hate not being able to play my piano pieces like I should. I hate how my social life has been...
Sometimes I can’t help but ask why we still together. You were perfect and had it all going on.
November 2011
19 posts
We could have best friends and lovers. Missing your warm arms right now……..