May 2012
18 posts
I haven’t known you long but you have made me realize of the type of people that are in this world. You made me realize that my past relationships didn’t work out for a reason. You made me realize that i deserve more than what I’ve been settling for. Thank you.
I can’t get over the night I just had. I am still laughing.
I wish I could say things like that didn’t bug me, but they do.
i kinda see my relationships as clothing brands. some of the big labels (big names) are really nice looking and feel good and are great for awhile but some of my small brands clothes (small names) are still some of my favorite things in my closet because of the patterns or color or fit. What im trying to say here i guess is, sometimes some of the smaller people you meet who arent as popular can...
I wish I could block you from my mind forever but sadly I can’t. It’s amazing what only a couple of weeks does to me…
I feel like my life has changed so much and so fast this past year. It’s like every week is different. Summer is like a week away and I can hardly wait! I’m ready for the changes and the laughs and the late night and the new friends and the hot sun. I feel like I’ve changes so much since last summer and even though there has been some bad spots though the year, I don’t...
Awkward moment when you will never have a chance to be a cheerleader…. : /
I’m having a hard enough time with this. I don’t need you reminding me about it every single day. I want it too but if it’s meant to be it will happen in its own time. You, me, anyone else can’t change it. It has to happen on its own. So can we just let this go now?
Why why why why why why why why why :(
All these pictures make me wish I could have been at prom more than anything -_-
A big part of me still wants to support you but I know it doesn’t matter to you.
I’m ready to be in love.
Maybe my mom is right. Maybe I am holding to much in at one time. Maybe i should get a therapist so I can rant without feeling judged. In the mean time, maybe I should get some more Zantac… :/
It would be cool if everyone stopped posting about prom and how awesome its going to be and all their shoes and the cars they are taking and the earrings they got and the bags and their dates. I’m just not in the mood to read about it constantly :/
Sometimes I kinda wish i didnt love interior design so much. The love and passion i have for interior design is so unreal. I never knew I could love something so much. Its kinda scary…. All i want to do is design and look at interior design books and blogs and go look at houses and look at carpet and lamps and paint and counter tops and bricks and back splashes. Design is becoming more and...
I’ve never felt this hurt in my entire life.
Also, I wish I was better at being honest with people.
For the record, I just want to say I didn’t do anything or say anything or ask anything. I’m just doing what I’ve been told. If you changed your mind then that’s your problem, not mine.
April 2012
15 posts
Prom is depressing me -_-
I hate it when my family sits around a and talks about me. I always feel like they doubt me. Yeah I’m not the smartest and I say dumb things sometimes but when I put my mind to something, im going to do it. UC is all I want. The program is perfect for me. It has everything I need. I am in love with it. I just need my mom to believe in me just this one time and I’ll be fine. I can do...
Right now, I don’t even know if I am/want to go to prom….. : /
Absolutely nothing has changed. You are still a jerk. I was really hopping tonight would be different….,
You know how much this means to me. Can’t you just pretend to be interested? Just a little bit? I listen to you every day but when it comes to something that means a lot to me you blow it off. I don’t care if it’s just a dress or just some shoes, but can’t you just acted excited or interested for 5 minutes?
If I like it or not, my feelings are still very real for you.
You are lucky if your heart aches for someone who loves you and is missing you too. Even though it sucks to miss someone, it somehow makes it easier when the feeling is mutual. Now imagine missing someone like non other but knowing for a fact that they don’t miss you at all. It hurts a lot more, trust me. I would know.
“if you fell in the shower it would suck because eventually the hot water would run out and it would just be cold”
Ohhhh dad :)
Sometimes it so hard sitting back and watching your friends all date. But I know my time is coming. I’ll find an awesome guy to laugh with and be best friends with. I’m excited for that day but I really hope I stop wishing guys were Logan because that’s so over. I need to move past those thoughts because he will never change. He will never treat me the way I should be treated. I...
Remember that one time you memorized my number and started screaming it out at the pool because you thought it was funny? Me too.
I miss those days so much. I miss being friends and laughing with you and getting super hugs and going to Wendy’s and chipotle together. I miss the time before I had such strong feelings for you. I will never get over this because our friendship was so important...
I dont know whats wrong with me :( i cant focus at all. nothing intrests me. i cant do school. im always so tired. I just want to do school and finish and consentrate. I just cant seem to :(
You only live once. One time. Is taking a chance worth it if heart break is involved? But then either way it’s going to hurt….so which way do I go? :/
A part of me wants to forget everything we had and all the things I felt but at the same time I love the memories I have with you. I just wish it wasn’t so painful looking back on them sometimes.
ever since i saw you yesterday i cant shake you from my mind. I want to see you again so bad it hurts. i pray every time my phone vibrates it will be your name on the screen. I wish i could just accept its over and you dont care about me but i feel like there may be a slim chace that you still like me to? idk but i just know that i want you. my heart hurts because it knows it wont be seeing you...
Seeing you tonight was….amazing. Getting wrapped up in your arms again give me joy I cant even express. I love how tall you are. I love your hair. I love. Your teeth and how the front 2 are kinda pointy. I love how you dress. I love your smile.
Can’t you see we are perfect together? I just want to see you again. One more time. You are all that I can think about right now and I...
March 2012
14 posts
I just want to spend my night with you again. I miss your laugh. I miss your arms. I miss your crappy smelling lotion. I miss your beeping smoke detector. I miss the way your front door sounds. I miss your big couch. I miss wearing your socks. I miss the way your hair feels. I miss your hands. I miss how warm your house is. I hate how much I feel like I need you. I hate that I love you.
I’m stressing out so much about dumb things. I just going to take a deep breath and let things work themselves out. I’m going to just enjoy tomorrow night. I am not going to look at prom dresses anymore until I get asked. I’m not even going to talk about prom anymore. I am going to just focus on family, having a good spring break and college stuff. I’m just sick of thinking...
I wish I could say that I’m ready for a relationship but I don’t think I am right now. I think I need to just do me right now and let things fall into place when it’s time. I’ll wait for a good guy to come along but right now I think I need to protect my heart from getting hurt more.
I don’t know what should hurt more. Being asked out because you have a nice butt or being dumped because you wouldn’t put out.
good luck ladies. good luck.
I’ll always love the way your arms fit around me so perfectly……
All I need in my life is God, my friends and family. Everything else will fall into place when it’s time. But for now, I’m feeling pretty freaking blessed.
I could kick myself for not stoping to say hi to you. I miss your humor in my life.
I thought each day would get easier but everyday I miss you more and more and I can’t stop.
I can’t help but be proud for you and be happy for you. Even though you suck and you’ve been a jerk and you’ve hurt me, I still want the best for you and I’m so glad you found a college to make you happy. Good luck and be smart.
I don’t want to do today. And today isn’t even that bad.
This whole time I’ve been trying to impress you and prove something to you but the truth is, you don’t even care and I don’t need to prove anything to you. You shouldn’t even have a place in my mind. I’m me and I love me. You didnt and thats your loss. I’m going my way and if you think I’m weird and make fun of me or are mean to me, I don’t care. I...
Operation find a Sadie’s Hawkins date is tomorrow. Kinda scared to be honest.
I really wish I could see numbers the way everyone else sees them. Sometimes its really really embarrassing when I can’t read off numbers right to people. I have the hardest time with money figures because the numbers just switch in my head. When I’m reading off numbers or working with them I have to concentrate so hard to see it right. When I look at a big number, it kinda blends...
Who would have every thought that I would end up hating someone do much when I use to love them so much. Oh how things change…
February 2012
18 posts
I don’t like sitting in my room alone with no one to talk to. I’m so restless….
Getting over you won’t always be easy but I know it’s for the very best. I’m so glad I see this now instead of later
I don’t get really upset very often but when I do it sucks and I feel really horrible. This wasn’t suppose to happen. I was never suppose to like you. You were never suppose to be a jerk. You were never suppose to hurt me. This is all so dumb because it doesnt seem like there was a lot there but to me there was. There was months of emotions building up to just be knocked down. It hurts...