There has been a lot going through my mind latley
Today the thoughts have really been hitting hard. I have been looking at different wedding planers in the area and getting emails so I can message them and ask about job shadowing. Wedding planning is seriously something I want to look into. I want to start figuring it out now instead of waiting till Im older. Waiting just seems silly to me when I want to learn more now. But I need to talk to my parents about it. My parents are awesome but sometimes they arent really the best at supporting my dreams and wants in life because they dont want me to get hurt and to fail. I know they are just trying to protect me but I want them to take this all seriously and see that this is what I want. I just want them to support me and believe in me and be there if I do fail. I just need there blessing on this and to take me seriously. Like how they take Janae….
I also need to talk to them about Tecumseh. I always put it off because its kinda touchy subject but if this is something I want, I NEED to speak up and let them know how I feel and that this is something I really really want. Sometimes my parents and I just arent on the same page on things. And sometimes I am scared of talking to them because im scared they will get mad at me and not support me and not let me persue my dreams. I know they will listen but sometimes they arent the best at understanding me. Dont get me wrong, i love them and they are amazing, but they just dont get me sometimes. Im not like them or Janae. And I just really hope they can get that… So I need to talk to them. Like today. about everything thats been going though my head and hopefully get everyone on the same page. Im just nervous about it……
